HAPPY DAYS

2006-05-21T06:17:00.000-07:00

I THANK YOU,I'M SORRY,I'LL MISS YOU,I WON'T,I LOVE YOU.

MY M1K FAMILY

Thank you for everything...
thank you for the laughs...
thank you for the tears of joy...
thank you for hanging out with me..
thank you for introducing yourselves to me...
thank you for entrusting your secrets to me....
thank you for loving me...
thank you for supporting me...
thank you for accepting me as "me"....
thank you for molding me into a "better" person....

i'm sorry for the times when i've had the wrong notions about you guys....
i'm sorry for my being insensitive sometimes...
i'm sorry for not returning any favor...
i'm sorry for not helping you in times you needed me...
i'm sorry for being tactless and careless...
i'm sorry for all the wrong things i've done...

i'll miss your laughs...
i'll miss the energy of the class...
i'll miss our karaoke moments...
i'll miss our bar hopping nights...
i'll miss our "inuman sessions"
i'll miss your jokes...
i'll miss your face....
i'll miss everything about you guys....

i won't desert you guys...
i won't find any family that could ever replace you guys in my heart....
i won't forget you guys...
i won't leave you guys behind...

i love you guys for everything...
i love you guys for being yourselves....
i love you for making my first year in my college life complete and VERY happy.....

='( I LOVE YOU SO MUCH GUYS. I HOPE YOU WILL NEVER FORGET ME. THIS IS JUST FAREWELL BUT NOT GOODBYE BECAUSE I KNOW WE'LL ALWAYS KEEP IN TOUCH. AND I WANT YOU TO KNOW THAT YOU'LL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART. THANK YOU FOR BEING A PART OF MY FIRST AND BEST YEAR IN COLLEGE LIFE. ^_^

SEE YOU SOON! AND GOOD LUCK IN ALL YOUR ENDEAVORS! I WILL ALWAYS BE AROUND. I'M JUST A CALL OR TEXT AWAY! I HOPE YOU ARE TOO GUYS. :)

"The end does not justify the means."
-Niccolo Machiavelli

2006-04-24T22:28:00.000-07:00

RUZKI'S BDAY

Oh my...it was saturday, April 1,2006. We've had the time of our lives. Right after our finals in oralcom, we headed straight home to prepare our gowns and to prep ourselves for her big night. Roanne, Em, Angelica and I were in a panic because we went out at around 5:30 pm and we're headed straight to Bulacan. And the party's at 6pm (kamusta naman?) But when we came, the party started at around 7pm. All of my blockmates were there (except for some pasaways)! I really missed them. We see each other down the hallways of Benilde but we never get to bond anymore because of our scheds. The program was such a blast! And her gowns are all MAGICAL, AWESOME and BEAUTIFUL. I loved Ruzki's aqua dress. It was the crown of all her gowns during the night. The food was great and so are the presentations. The program went smoothly. We stayed for the night. And we're up till 5 in the morning drinking, dancing and partying! And we went swimming in the morning! Though the pool wasn't that nice (because hotdog chunks were floating. Obviously, somebody has barfed in the pool! GROSS!), we still managed to have fun because we're together. I really missed my barkada. HAPPY BIRTHDAY GIRL (though my blog states otherwise. No time to post. THANK GOODNESS FOR DSL!)

2006-04-02T23:36:00.000-07:00

SOMETHING FOR THE MAN OF MY DREAMS

i like him when i saw him....
he seemed so fine...
can't get him off of my mind....
his silent aura...
his smiling eyes....
his calming smile...
makes every glance and stare worthwhile....
his voice so solemn...
sounds so sweet....
holding his guitar and with a song...
he looked very fine...
he swept me off my feet....

school's gone...
summer's bout to come...
and still here i am....
all alone...
waiting for him to call my name...
talk to me....
or maybe....
hold my hand....
every single day....
i fall....
every moment i see him....
it's like i've already had a glimpse of everything....

i can't wait till forever...
because i might leave him forever...
i'd like to know what's gonna happen between us....
if were positive...that's okay
but if not....
that's still okay...
but i'm still hoping...
someday....

i just wish he would see...
how much he really mean to me...
i'd want him to hear...
how much i'd love to spend my time with him...
i'll dry his tears...
kiss his lips...
make him forget everything but a night like this....
i will hold his hand...
hug his body...
tell to his ears softly....
"i love you so much...i won't let you go..."

i just hope he gets to read this in time....
maybe he'll realize that i'd like him to be mine...
Almighty God...please help me....
While josh is sleeping...
may he dream of me....
And in his dreams i'll hope he'll find....
The girl he's been dreaming of all his life....
And I hope that he'll see...
That deep within him...
Is the girl of his dreams...
Whom he'll never let go...
And I hope...That girl...
is me....

2006-03-20T02:24:00.001-08:00

ON LETTING GO...

"We need, in love, to practice only this. Letting go. For holding on comes easily. We do not need to learn it."- Rainier Maria Rilke

Have you ever fallen in love? Sure everybody has. Whatever it is that I have in mind when i typed this blog...I don't know. Maybe I'm just a hopeless romantic. Maybe i've nothing to do. Maybe i'm just letting my time pass. Or maybe, I'm just missing the love that I once had...

It really is complicated when you start to love. In just a minute you could fall, but letting go takes forever. All the things you did for love...Just went to waste in an instant.

No one knows for certain when you're going to fall. For everybody has the power to make you fall inlove. Falling inlove requires no reason. It has no age. It crosses horizons. It overcomes strength and fear. Love, so strong; that's why it's hard letting such a thing go. For in love, you grow with the person; you live with the person; and you start to become "SOMEBODY" because of that person. Now tell me, is that person worth letting go? But what if the time comes everything just seems so wrong? Will you still struggle to find the truth between the lies? Will you still make the wrong seem right? What will you do for love? Will you give away everything just to make things fall into place? If you have a spark of hope to change everything, will you hold on to it tightly? AND WHAT IF YOU ALREADY DID EVERYTHING AND THE ROADS JUST SEEMS TO LEAD SOMEWHERE BUT YOUR PATH? Are you ready to put all your efforts to waste? ARE YOU READY TO LET GO?

Letting go truly is the hardest part. It might be the second to death as the most painful experience. Letting go is like sprinkling your diamonds to the sea knowing that they'll never return but you still did. But what are the reasons behind letting go? Is it because of the reasons you don't seem to understand? Or it's just plainly you're not meant to be?

Letting go comes when the other falls apart. Believe it or not. You can't work your way through by dragging somebody in your direction when that one wants to go his/her own way. You have no chance but to let go of their hand and say goodbye. Indifferences cause this. Love sparks can die. You may thought you love that person and you may thought the person loved you. Some people are just to immature to handle you seriously. So when you love, you have to prepare yourself for everything. When you hold on to the roses, be ready to be pricked and bleed because of the thorns. The tighter the grip, the harder it bleeds.

But you know what? Hard as it may seem, try looking at letting go on it's positive side especially for those who have been taken for granted. Nothing beats the feeling of being loved but just also bear in mind to keep something to yourself. Give away all the love you can give but don't forget you must love "you". No matter what happens, in the end, you'll still have "you". And i'm sure that will make you happy. No matter how broken or shattered you've been, you still have you. Try enjoying all the possibilities available while they're at your reach. Appreciate all the love your friends, family and God are giving you.

If you let go, don't despise the person. Erase all the bad memories and feelings but be sure to keep the happy ones. Because no matter how hard you've been hurt when you once fell in love, admit it or not, YOU'VE BEEN HAPPY.

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But you know what's harder? It's when you thought you're already moving on...then you just suddenly realize...you're just trying to get by...one stupid day at a time....

2006-03-15T23:45:00.000-08:00

MY EXTEMPORANEOUS SPEECH

You know what???? we're having this cool extemporaneous speech! And guess what imma do?? IMMA PLAY THE PIANO!!! Now ain't that awesome??? I jsut wish I son't tie my fingers in a knot while i'm already playing!! WISH ME LUCK DUDES AND DUDETTES! I'd like to make "GUITAR BASICS" as my topic but darn...somebody submitted right ahead of me...Oh well...

2005-12-23T23:15:00.000-08:00

JULUIS IS THE BEST PROF! WOOHOO!!

After getting my course card from my master, Mr. Julius Espinosa (The leader of the infamous cult, Juliusian..hehe..) Roanne, Gem, Angelica and I stayed for a chit chat with my Logic professor. I've talked to him almost about anything under the sun. He taught us a lot and we've learned a lot due to his logical nature.

The best part is, IT'S HIS PAYDAY!!! Imagine, nilibre kame ni ser joolyoos. Hehehe...He was so kind enough to feed us, the ever wandering "hampaslupas" at Jollibee. Our food bill was fairly high but, okay lang. Si ser joolyoos ang taya! hehehe....

Trust me, If ever he'll be your Prof, you will never regret it. He may appear to be mataray sometimes but just be nice and do your best...You'll find that he'll be your greatest prof and bud ever..

I WILL MISS YOU A LOT SIR JULIUS! =*

2005-12-19T19:32:00.000-08:00

LET'S PARTY!!! (When there's bad, there's good)

Saturday night, at around 0920pm, I came to PIER ONE, THE FORT for our block christmas party. I was striking in my killer PARIS HILTON-INSPIRED outfit (muwahahaha!)

We were pissed because the managment of pier one told us that we're minors. so, WE CAN'T DRINK. (WHAT THE %^&!) So instead of boring ourselves out in pier one, we decided to go to Prince of Jaipur wherein we can eat, DRINK, dance and be merry.

But sadly, due to the constraining effects of financial difficulties that has been narrowed down to the people of the Philippines, We've decided that the entrance fee of 300php was waaay too expensive (Not unless we're RICH.Mahirap na buhay kailangan manguripot..hehe..)

Actually, Money will not matter since Jaipur is loads of fun. And the real reason why we didn't go there: It's confidential. *wink*

My girls and I are PISSED OFF! Why? No taxis, place to drink, to dance, short of money, of time and stupid perverts looking at us (SHOOT 'EM ALL!)!

Alas! After getting a taxi, we then decided to proceed to absinth, greenbelt. With an entrance fee of 200php, I can say it's really worth it.

After paying for the entrance, IT'S PARTY TIME! Kang, Roanne, Aika and I graced the dancefloor. Enter JAY! Our main man Jay! (He's the only guy that's gonna get down and dirty with us. Gelo is exclusively for sam only. hwehehe...)

Okay, imma summarize the whole thing. I've met two wonderful guys, Tony and Ariel. Tony is quite...And Ariel is just a plain party boy. And I've met this DOM kinda' guy and his body guard and they're both IRRITATING! ARGH! Gelo was generous enough to buy us "sisha" (I MISS SHAA! HEHE..) And it's dayum..GOOD! And the rest of the night, we danced and danced and of course, danced.

I went home at around 10 to 2am. I was exhausted but before I lay my head to sleep, I prayed to God for giving me such a wonderful time with my friends and for keeping me safe at home. Then after that, I slept with a smile on my face before my consciousness faded away to a sound lullaby...

2005-12-19T19:26:00.000-08:00

"There are some people who meet that somebody that they can never stop loving, no matter how hard they try. I wouldn't expect you to understand that or even believe it, but trust me , there are some love that don't go away. And maybe that makes them crazy, but we should all be lucky to end up with that somebody who has alittle of that insanity. Somebody who never lets go. Somebody who cherises you forever." - - Ally McBeal

2005-12-05T05:54:00.000-08:00

THE DANCE

ARRGGHH!!! Finals is fast approaching like the speed of light! my classmates and I are about to part...and it's sooo sad =( i'll miss them so much...they're my first college barkada...But whatever happens, I'll always be a solid M1K.

Lots of quizzes, projects, finals lessons, exams arrrghh!!! SCHOOL LOAD! Anyways, the dance. Yes it's our final exam in PE. It's nice because the theme is about modern dance. And we're gonna dance a total remix of get right, ever after, pinoy ako, too sexy and everbody dance now!!! hmmm...our dance is a must-see! haha...Shaa! cringe in jealousy as mike and I grace the dance floor together! lolz! =D haha....

anyways, it's my second post...hehe

cogito ergo sum!!!!

2005-11-28T04:37:00.000-08:00

For some reason, I don't know why I've registered in this blog. Maybe driven by my curiosity due to those pretty bloggers by my classmates, i went on and tried signing up for an account..

Anyways, hi. I am Martha A. Sta. Barbara. Living in God knows where and studies in a college everyone knows. My age is something between 16 and 18 and I stand 3 feet+2 feet+5 inches tall=5'5. I am ambidexterous, for some reason I don't know why. I find this life fantastic as long as I can play badminton, in arcades, eat my fave foods, swim in the beach and sleep. I am an introverted- extrovert. Don't ask. It would take me an hour to finish this and frankly, I don't quite have the time. I dream as if this life is my playground. I create it. I design it and I mold it. I love studying believe it or not. To all the people who know me, I might appear as a big pile of a human being who always bury her nose in a joke book that's why she's so good at making people laugh. But like what they say, People who can make people laugh are the most witty people in the world. Why say so? Because our minds our quick. That's all. Now that's a piece of information for you. But don't get me wrong. This brain of mine has lots of things in it. And good thing my memory is good. My IQ is fine and my intelligence is getting better. Anyways, enough of that. I'm not emotional. I'm just sweet. But I ain't goin' for chick flicks, rnb and mushy stuffs. I love rock. Yes. You've heard it right. Don't be fooled with my face. I might seem to be a lover of ashanti, missy elliot and rnb people but HELL NO. Flame me if you must rnb patrons but I just can't stand those words that hitler only knows what it means. Rock is all about things, people, feelings and plain rock. It's not noise. It's art. It's music. And for those who can't appreciate it, go to hell. haha.lolz

Anyways, that's just me. Feel free to add me up if you still want to take a tour inside my life.

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See you guys when I see you.

AT LAST! MY FIRST POST! gaharharhar! =p